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Friday, May 20, 2005, 11:50 AM
haiz......i dunno wad happen to mi tis few days.......feel lyk.......haix.....dunno how to describle......erm.....it's juz so miserable......wanna cry but no tears come out.......feel lyk crying but dun dare to cry........dunno hu to look 4 also......i also dunno y i felt tis way.....the moment i m alone or no one toks to mi, i will start to tink n tink of lots n lots of thingy den after tat will end up feeling tis way.......WHY???? ARGH!!!!! i dun wanna b liddat.......tis is moi first tym liddat.......no one could understand how i feel cos i also dun understand.........den is lyk tis feeling usually comes when i m in sch.......also dunno y........tink is b'cos of results ba......i feel veri pressured by moi klasmates.....all so pro......nth to sae sia......tink i gonna get last in klas le......even if not last also is last few lor........i m now behaving lyk how i behave when i took back moi ss TA paper tat tym.......but tis tym, it was worst......wanna cry also ku bu chu.......haix........mayb cos i m afraid tat those ppl would b worried for mi again......i dun wan them to b worrying bt mi........especially tat person who believe in mi so much.......put so much hopes on mi n get mi to where i m now......mayb i felt tat moi results have disappoint him........i dunno.......he didnt sae anything but even if he is not disappointed, mi also not happy wif moi results cos ppl in moi class can do it......so y cant i???? i keep telling moiself not to tink too much.......work harder 4 end-of-yr paper......but can i do it????? i m realli scare.......scare of so many things........haix......wad to do???? todae more worst sia.......moi attitude todae realli sux (in sch la)......i show AP to moi frenz......haix.....sOrrY lAlA n sZeyInG!!!!! i didnt mean to do tat but i juz dunno wad happen to mi..........after the release-of-result day, everydae i stepped into the class, i feel veri pressured.....n of cos i hate ppl asking mi *hey! how much is ur total???? how much is ur L1R5???? how many sub u fail????* but i dun blame them cos they dunno how moi results n all......but i realli score veri badly tis tym........is real bad......no one is worst than mi le.......but wad can i do???? mayb i need a gd crying session........let everything out ba.....